If you are like me, I'm sure that you have been down this weight loss journey before. Trying several different methods too I'm sure. Nathan and I have tried P90X several times before, but we never did it correctly, certain workouts or exercises we didn't like we just skipped, I don't think he has ever done more than 10 min of yoga. But I have no doubt that it would work if followed correctly. But here is my problem: It sikes you out.
When we were doing it, it was a daily struggle to push play, because you knew the ass kicking you were about to have. Once you got started you struggled your way through the warm-ups and attempted your best to do the workouts (i had a lot of modifications) and you survived (sort of). I would make every excuse in the book to not do the workouts though. It was all a mental thing. I knew how terrible it was going to be and my brain said nope. So my solution was to workout my way.
I could easily make myself go to the gym, and tell myself just do 15 minutes. Thats all. Once I was there and got moving though, the endorphins would kick in and I would be there for an hour, working my butt off (literally) on the elliptical. And then do a couple weights just for the heck of it. You can't do that with P90X. You can't push play and tell your brain, oh its just some light jogging, no biggie today, I know you are tired. And to me that was more detrimental to my workout than anything.
I think that to continue with an exercise regimine, you have to find something that works for you. A lot of times I think people give up on exercise because they haven't found their workout yet. So How many different ways did you try before you found your dream workout?
Friday, December 7, 2012
Getting Started
So today starts my new weight loss regime. I have made a few goals, based on a weekly weight loss of about 2 lbs. (keep it healthy) with a total weight loss of 100 lbs.
Current weight: 260 lbs
Ultimate Goal: 160 lbs
I had thought about making my goal 170, but I figured why not, go for an even 100. So here are a couple of my goals broken down, which I am calling my checkpoint goals:
Mini Checkpoint goals:
Christmas Day: down 5 lbs
Valentines Day: down 20 lbs
Easter: down 32 lbs
Cinco de Mayo: down 44 lbs
Memorial day: down 48 lbs
Fathers Day: down 55 lbs
July 4th: down 60 lbs
My birthday (Aug 24th): 76 lbs
1 year Wedding Anniversary (Sept 15th): 82 lbs down
Halloween: down 90 lbs
Thanksgiving: down 100 lbs!
Major Goals:
Valentines Day: 240 Because everyone wants an excuse to get dolled up and have a romantic dinner with their husband. I would like to do it in this LBD that hasn't seen action in a while.
Memorial Day: 212 lbs First "lake day" of the year, have to be bikini ready
July 4th: 200 lbs Major Lake Day, you will see everbody today and they will all see you. Plus its the 200 lbs mark, which I just really want to break.
Vacation: 178 lbs On my honeymoon I only went out to the pool once and only because there were a bunch of senior citizens in bikinis and I knew I had to look better than them, chunky or not. This year I want to show my husband, how proud I am to be his trophy wife.
Halloween: 170 lbs I haven't dressed up for Halloween the last 3 years because I couldn't find a "hot" outfit that fit. I want to be the hottest wife at the Halloween party this year. Not the fat girl who didn't dress up.
Thanksgiving: 160 lbs: This is my final goal. I know its weird to pick the biggest food holiday of the year but I want to just acknowledge how thankful I will be once I accomplish my goal, and even if I don't accomplish it, I know that in time I will because of the support of my family and friends.
Current weight: 260 lbs
Ultimate Goal: 160 lbs
I had thought about making my goal 170, but I figured why not, go for an even 100. So here are a couple of my goals broken down, which I am calling my checkpoint goals:
Mini Checkpoint goals:
Christmas Day: down 5 lbs
Valentines Day: down 20 lbs
Easter: down 32 lbs
Cinco de Mayo: down 44 lbs
Memorial day: down 48 lbs
Fathers Day: down 55 lbs
July 4th: down 60 lbs
My birthday (Aug 24th): 76 lbs
1 year Wedding Anniversary (Sept 15th): 82 lbs down
Halloween: down 90 lbs
Thanksgiving: down 100 lbs!
Major Goals:
Valentines Day: 240 Because everyone wants an excuse to get dolled up and have a romantic dinner with their husband. I would like to do it in this LBD that hasn't seen action in a while.
Memorial Day: 212 lbs First "lake day" of the year, have to be bikini ready
July 4th: 200 lbs Major Lake Day, you will see everbody today and they will all see you. Plus its the 200 lbs mark, which I just really want to break.
Vacation: 178 lbs On my honeymoon I only went out to the pool once and only because there were a bunch of senior citizens in bikinis and I knew I had to look better than them, chunky or not. This year I want to show my husband, how proud I am to be his trophy wife.
Halloween: 170 lbs I haven't dressed up for Halloween the last 3 years because I couldn't find a "hot" outfit that fit. I want to be the hottest wife at the Halloween party this year. Not the fat girl who didn't dress up.
Thanksgiving: 160 lbs: This is my final goal. I know its weird to pick the biggest food holiday of the year but I want to just acknowledge how thankful I will be once I accomplish my goal, and even if I don't accomplish it, I know that in time I will because of the support of my family and friends.
My Background
So here goes nothing.
I am a 24 year old, 5'10" broad shouldered, big boned young women. I have been skinny but I have never been small. In high school at around 150 lbs, my hips bones used to stick out at least an inch and I had very prominent collar bones. I was also pretty muscular though which didn't help out my "linebacker shoulders" very much. I played volleyball, and did colorguard in the band in the fall and played bass clarinet in the spring. I was always very active but with a particular fondness for long naps. I was so used to a hectic schedule that by senior year, I had contracted mono, and didn't even know it until my tonsils started turning white. The doctor asked if I had noticed any unusual tiredness, to which I replied, I'm always tired, but thats been the norm for the past 4 years.
So that really started my weight gain, I was put on immediate bed rest for the next week, and ordered no physical activity during that time. I put on 20 lbs that much. I guess which goes to show you how much no physical activity affected my body, considering I ate a lot of food daily to keep up with the calories I was burning, until I wasn't burning any and just kept eating the same. The next year I went to Virginia Tech and was introduced into some amazing food that I have never had acess to before. I think I only put on around 10 lbs, nothing too noticeable. The next year I moved off campus and started living alone. Sophmore year I was up to around 200 lbs. Easily the biggest of my friends but I didn't feel fat. I felt sexy. My favorite phrase at the time was Dangerous Curves ahead. My friends were sticks, one had boobs but nothing else going for her, the other had a butt but she was still stick straight. Whereas I was like Kim Kardashian with a small gut. All hourglassy and wonderful. I loved that time. We went out a lot and just had a blast.
Then I got in a relationship with a guy from back home, who loved my curves, told me I needed to put on weight so I would get a bigger butt (real winner, I know) so I did. I put on another 15-20 lbs, but not in the right areas. My face was most noticeabley fatter. Then we broke up and I spiraled. I couldn't make myself let go of the situation, this manipulative person who had talked their way into my life with their smooth words and compliments was suddenly the entire focus of my existence. And I tried to fight my way back into his life. My mom told me she thought I was depressed. And I was. But I told her she was crazy and didn't speak to her for 2 weeks. This continued on for quite some time, until I met my husband during Thanksgiving break my senior year. And things were wonderful, but I was still in my own web of depression, and it took until my super senior year to figure out what the problem was. I took an online survey and it said that I needed to see a counseler, because it was most likely I was depressed.
So then started a new life of counseler visits and trying to graduate, which I finally did in June 2011. In all that time my weight fluctuated quite a bit I had even gotten lost 20 lbs my super senior year, but I was still only 220 lbs. After graduation of course, I came home to mom's cooking every night, whereas I had lived off salads mostly for the past few months, Nathan and I got engaged and a year later we were married on September 15, 2012. So here I am a happy newlywed, but the one thing that makes me unhappy is my weight. I am now at 260 lbs, where I have been holding steady for almost a year now.
I am a 24 year old, 5'10" broad shouldered, big boned young women. I have been skinny but I have never been small. In high school at around 150 lbs, my hips bones used to stick out at least an inch and I had very prominent collar bones. I was also pretty muscular though which didn't help out my "linebacker shoulders" very much. I played volleyball, and did colorguard in the band in the fall and played bass clarinet in the spring. I was always very active but with a particular fondness for long naps. I was so used to a hectic schedule that by senior year, I had contracted mono, and didn't even know it until my tonsils started turning white. The doctor asked if I had noticed any unusual tiredness, to which I replied, I'm always tired, but thats been the norm for the past 4 years.
So that really started my weight gain, I was put on immediate bed rest for the next week, and ordered no physical activity during that time. I put on 20 lbs that much. I guess which goes to show you how much no physical activity affected my body, considering I ate a lot of food daily to keep up with the calories I was burning, until I wasn't burning any and just kept eating the same. The next year I went to Virginia Tech and was introduced into some amazing food that I have never had acess to before. I think I only put on around 10 lbs, nothing too noticeable. The next year I moved off campus and started living alone. Sophmore year I was up to around 200 lbs. Easily the biggest of my friends but I didn't feel fat. I felt sexy. My favorite phrase at the time was Dangerous Curves ahead. My friends were sticks, one had boobs but nothing else going for her, the other had a butt but she was still stick straight. Whereas I was like Kim Kardashian with a small gut. All hourglassy and wonderful. I loved that time. We went out a lot and just had a blast.
Then I got in a relationship with a guy from back home, who loved my curves, told me I needed to put on weight so I would get a bigger butt (real winner, I know) so I did. I put on another 15-20 lbs, but not in the right areas. My face was most noticeabley fatter. Then we broke up and I spiraled. I couldn't make myself let go of the situation, this manipulative person who had talked their way into my life with their smooth words and compliments was suddenly the entire focus of my existence. And I tried to fight my way back into his life. My mom told me she thought I was depressed. And I was. But I told her she was crazy and didn't speak to her for 2 weeks. This continued on for quite some time, until I met my husband during Thanksgiving break my senior year. And things were wonderful, but I was still in my own web of depression, and it took until my super senior year to figure out what the problem was. I took an online survey and it said that I needed to see a counseler, because it was most likely I was depressed.
So then started a new life of counseler visits and trying to graduate, which I finally did in June 2011. In all that time my weight fluctuated quite a bit I had even gotten lost 20 lbs my super senior year, but I was still only 220 lbs. After graduation of course, I came home to mom's cooking every night, whereas I had lived off salads mostly for the past few months, Nathan and I got engaged and a year later we were married on September 15, 2012. So here I am a happy newlywed, but the one thing that makes me unhappy is my weight. I am now at 260 lbs, where I have been holding steady for almost a year now.
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